Fixin' to Head out

*That title's a little shout out to all my non-Texan friends who are not cool enough to say "fixin' to" :)

Journal Entry 1-5/30/10

Getting ready for Haiti! I'm really excited, but not in a "This is going to be a bubblegum time"; it feels more like the excited you get before a really hard workout that you don't really feel strong enough for. For some reason I don't feel very prepared for this trip, but I know God's grace will fill in where I will (undoubtedly) fail. I know He'll guide the trip according to His plan. I feel like, in an effort to keep my nerves down, I did less preparing for this trip than I did for Africa. Although, I almost feel I over prepared for that one. Either way, I can't turn back time so I'm just resting on God's promise that if I don't worry and just pray, He'll take care of it (Phil 4:6). I've changed so much since my Africa trip and it's such a different trip. I pray not just that my teammates and I would come back changed, but that we would not what to do with the change when we come home...because we will come home...back to our American lives...where we must come to terms with the vast differences in material wealth we've seen. Thank you God for all that you've brought me through 'til now and for Your perfect timing. I pray if Your will can't be shown right now that You'd help me focus on Your story for me now.